我，累了。
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
with ♥ 11:08 PM
im tired. really tired. 我快崩溃了。i dont have time to myself; almost everyday's bmt. after tournament stil gt training and i missed so many impt lessons, like lit and
math. its been so long since i actually saw ms lim! :( and i alrdy cant catch up.
oh yes, everyone tell me after com everything wil be better.
HELLO?! by then it'll take damn long to actually catch up,
if i can at all! and hello, not like the whole june hol im free.
its almost full packed alrdy! stupid boring camp take up one week, lectures, tutorials, PW and SL take up almost the rest of the days. :( it'd be a bloody miracle if there's no training during hols. tell me how can i not break down? tell me how can i not dislike bmt so much? tell me how can i even try catch up in hols and study for the exams that's right after the hols?!??!?!?! X'(
it isnt easy for others to understand; im the only child. i
CANNOT not do well. and im nt doing well, and hence my distress now. bmt is nth to me; studies is my
main priority. :(
and im really really sorry to my dear PW grp members: dawn, ben, crystal and cinch. im really sorry im missing all the meetings and barely doing ath. X( im sorry... :'(bmt tournament stil on going. what more can i say? some ppl once again reminded me how cruel and hypocritical the world is. how selfish everyone is. i shall nt say more. im jus really upset and pissed off. and some things cannot be so obvious. close frens like nette shld know what im alking abt. no wonder some ppl are disliked so much by many; simply bcos they dont have EQ at all. no social conscious.
i shall not say anymore; anger only fuels my rage.ive gt nth much to say anymore. what else can i say? except that im always in a irritated mood, i lost myself. i lost the cheery me. X( and econs test on friday; i know
nuts abt it. :( gonna study tmr during com, whether sm ppl like it or not. and tmr class gg on trip. :( i wanna go too...........sigh. thank goodness there's dear to spur me on.
and. im so bloody deprived of shopping. :(
=jinghui=
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